Taking A Moment

Tonight I am taken back four years ago.
Tonight was the night when I waited to deliver my son, whom I knew was no longer living.
My David and I silently packed our bags, ate dinner and attempted to watch TV.
It was truly a night I do not wish to repeat.

However, this night
I spent this night reading to my precious daughter!
I spent this night talking on the phone to my Dad and when my little girl needed correction I got to give her some loving discipline.
I spent this night singing Jesus loves me and praying with my my little girl, as I just tucked her into bed.
I will spend this night with my husband who, when he gets home will go in and kiss our little girl goodnight.

God gives us the desires of our hearts in his time.
All things in life are for the molding and shaping of our character.
My journey as a mother would not be complete without that night four years ago.
My eyes fill to the brim with tears as I consider how thankful I am to the Lord for giving me beautiful Bella and our new son who could come any time.
I spend tonight remembering Alexander but, I do not grieve for him.... because he is serving the Lord in heaven and for that I am most thankful!

Psalm 100:5
For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations