I am learning every day that when you are struggling against anxiety there is no CURE-ALL.
I have tried changing what I eat, losing weight, relaxation, scripture memory, prayer time, choosing joy, exercise, friends and the list could go on.
What I have used that works, is waiting. Yep, waiting :) Seems pretty simple doesn't it? I wait on the Lord and the symptoms start to fade away.
I remind myself, that I do not need to check my pulse for the millionth time( I need to wait)
When my head is pounding and I am convinced I will pass out I remind myself ( I need to wait)
When my eyes blur, and I can't see I say to myself (Wait just wait)
As I cry uncontrollably I sob (Wait on him, you can do this)
It always goes away.
This week with planning my blessed daughter's birthday and other events happening in our financial world, I have been struggling a lot with lengthy bought of anxiety.
It is difficult in the heat of the moment to remember that the Lord is holding me and I need to wait on his timing but, it is necessary for healing to occur.
My husband is good to remind me that it is like when I broke my arm. I didn't get up the day after surgery with a perfectly able limb. It took months of intense pain and therapy to get back what I had lost.
That is the case here. Time, prayer and patience. I hit a level of stress in my life, that I need to heal from.
My heart in writing this is maintaining perfect honesty about my struggles. It is easy to hide things behind cheesy smiles and jokes.
It is painful, yet healing to come out and say "things here are not perfect but, I am trusting" I also hope that other women who struggle with this might be helped by what I have to say.
I remember a time before this happened to me, when I felt like panic attacks or anxiety trouble were people wanting extra attention or just not trusting God enough.
I can tell from experience, this is not worth any attention it might get me.
This has changed my perspective on those that are hurting around me, and the effects of stress in people's lives.
It really is amazing how fragile our human bodies are.
It makes me all the more grateful to have a day where we will be radically transformed and will forever be with Jesus.
That is the goal, at the end of the day to be with HIM!
I have tried changing what I eat, losing weight, relaxation, scripture memory, prayer time, choosing joy, exercise, friends and the list could go on.
What I have used that works, is waiting. Yep, waiting :) Seems pretty simple doesn't it? I wait on the Lord and the symptoms start to fade away.
I remind myself, that I do not need to check my pulse for the millionth time( I need to wait)
When my head is pounding and I am convinced I will pass out I remind myself ( I need to wait)
When my eyes blur, and I can't see I say to myself (Wait just wait)
As I cry uncontrollably I sob (Wait on him, you can do this)
It always goes away.
This week with planning my blessed daughter's birthday and other events happening in our financial world, I have been struggling a lot with lengthy bought of anxiety.
It is difficult in the heat of the moment to remember that the Lord is holding me and I need to wait on his timing but, it is necessary for healing to occur.
My husband is good to remind me that it is like when I broke my arm. I didn't get up the day after surgery with a perfectly able limb. It took months of intense pain and therapy to get back what I had lost.
That is the case here. Time, prayer and patience. I hit a level of stress in my life, that I need to heal from.
My heart in writing this is maintaining perfect honesty about my struggles. It is easy to hide things behind cheesy smiles and jokes.
It is painful, yet healing to come out and say "things here are not perfect but, I am trusting" I also hope that other women who struggle with this might be helped by what I have to say.
I remember a time before this happened to me, when I felt like panic attacks or anxiety trouble were people wanting extra attention or just not trusting God enough.
I can tell from experience, this is not worth any attention it might get me.
This has changed my perspective on those that are hurting around me, and the effects of stress in people's lives.
It really is amazing how fragile our human bodies are.
It makes me all the more grateful to have a day where we will be radically transformed and will forever be with Jesus.
That is the goal, at the end of the day to be with HIM!
2 comments:
Thank you for sharing Mel. That takes a lot of courage to open your heart about such a tough and painful thing. You are always in my prayers and your honesty is a breath of fresh air to me. Your words of truth are always an encouragement to me.
Thank you for sharing mel... I know I'm a little late to respond to this post, but I truly respect your openness. You make such good points about trusting in the Lord, even at our weakest points in life. Stress is so hard and can really consume people... I've had my fair share over the years, and it makes things very difficult. But turning to the Lord is such a bold choice, and not the easiest thing to do. For me, I find myself trying to solve things or deal with stuff on my own and it just does't work that way. So, thank you for the words of wisdom mel. Hugs to you!
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