Observing

When we are little, faith in Christ is seems so simple.
He will cleanse my heart from sin and I can spend eternity with him.

As we grow our understanding deepens
Trials come, they go... the tapestry of our life is being woven with each thing allowed by God into our lives.
We struggle with sin, there is a victory with sin, and so on and so forth.

We drift,
   we agonize,
       we climb,
            we reach the heavenly heights
                  only to fall to the ground shaking
                         asking God for one more breath.

Life, as we grow is far from simple.

This weekend my dear friend said goodbye to her son.
He was one week old and looked perfect.
We marveled at photos, made phone calls and purchased gifts.
All involved thought time was on our side. 
We assumed there would be plenty of it to welcome new life.

Life is not within our control nor, is it always to our liking.

Much time has been spent by me,
asking God to show his hand in this.
I question,
I plead,
I beg for my friend's heart to be comforted,
I ask for another chance,
I ask for time to flow backward.
I got my answer.
Simple
Back to childhood I went

TRUST, just have faith and it will be rewarded.
I realized James' passing has so much meaning.
Drawing us to Christ, causing us to cling,
Here this small child... causing us to have childlike faith.
As people hear they are drawn to the light of Christ burning brightly.
I grieve for my friend, my heart pounds as I pray.
This grief is not without hope, sins have been washed away and I know where eternity will be spent.
My understanding has deepened yet, is back to the beginning.